Last day at Calhouns

I was just procrastinating all day. We had a meeting in the morning which I just sat there and listend. Then went back into the kitchen to do my prep and I just went to hang out with Josh and Ms. Rose the whole shift. I couldnt concentrate on doing any of my work! It was dead all day so thankfully I had ample time to do my prep about three times if I wanted to. I didnt even want to do it once. I crossed off a bunch of things that I didnt do but just didnt want to. Finnally it was over and I got a hug from Ms. Rose which I personaly thought that she never hugged anyone in her life because she is such a miserable old woman. She loves me though. She loves me and Josh because we actually do all of our work and more each day. She said she was so sad I was leaving and that she would miss me. Wooo.

Todays horiscope
Quickie--
Your attention span is short today -- you'll be easily bored and easily distracted.
Overview--
You don't mind change nearly as much as most other people, and today proves the rule. Something rather small is freaking out coworkers or neighbors, but you actively embrace the novelty.

So glad I get on a bus tomarow and go to camp. New jobs excite me. I love change. I just love doing new things. I just have to pack tonight because if it doesn't rain tommarow my aunt and uncle are bringing me and my little cousins on a boat at a lake for the day. My bus doesn't leave until 12:45 AM! Ill get to camp at 6:20am and then lifegaurd training starts at 9am.

I couldnt be happier.

ps. Theres not alot of cell phone reception and I dont think any internt at camp. Im really excited for that. I wont have to talk to anyone. I can just write them! :) This summer i will be xtechnologyxfreex bahahahahahha

campity camp camp camp.

3 more days until camp. No cell phone reception or internet. Pen pals and journal entries will substitute my addiction for the internet. All I know is that I am going to miss my boyfriend immensely. :(
Good news is I'm so excited for camp. I have to work a 15 hours shift tomarow, morning shift saturday, and im relaxing on a boat on the lake with my family all day sunday. Scetchy Greyhound bus to Morristown at 12:45am. I am kind of nervous for that. Wish me luck.
<3

A Gift for Melody Lane

I wanna hold hands
Yeah, and I wanna make love
And I wanna keep running all day, and all night
Even when my mind tell my body "that's enough"
And I wanna stand up
Yeah, and I wanna stand tall
If I ever have a son, if I ever have a daughter
I don't wanna tell them that I didn't give my all

Please pardon yourself.

I just jumped into this new life and tried my hardest not to look back. I get homesick for a place that doesn't even exist. Thousands of miles away I make up this perfect place that I wish I had when I lived there. Then I start to miss that imaginary place. I have these great friends at home, or so I think. Maybe they are just to busy. Maybe they have all the time for me in the world but no money or car. Maybe they are just to distant and to afraid of a meaningful friendship. I found a friends blog tonight. I saw one of her entrys that just made tears come to my eyes. It was a really old post and made me smirk. Although I've grown out of the things we used to do, its just nice to look back and reminice. Honestly, I just didn't think that she missed me. None of my old friends really try hard to keep in touch or even visit me, so I took that as a subtle fuck you.

I love them still the same.

few days passed

I can never seem to do this on a near daily basis. I suppose thats okay because I really wouldnt have anything interesting to say that often. Ive been doing alot of gymnastics with carlee and I tried to do a back hand spring. What a mistake that was! I landed on my head and like cracked my neck like 10 times. Hurt so bad. My back and neck were sore for a couple days. But im back in the game. Im tryign to learn how to do a handstand into a back bend then a back walkover. I have a perfect handstand and can stay up for like 20 seconds. I can flip into a back bend, but I cant walk my legs back over! Its so hard! haha. I miss my boyfriend so much. I just want to lay around and watch movies or just lay in bed and talk to him all day long. Buuuut, i cant. Camp starts soon and i will be in the middle of nowhere for 2 months. I hope i can prevent myself from burning as much as possible and just get a really nice tan. I cant even type anymore my wrists are so tired from handstands.
Goodbye.

Last day, freshman year.

I can not concentrate on studying right now. I've been taking a 5 minute break between each chapter I am reviewing for Sociology. My last exam, should be the easiest. Im moving out of the last dorm I will ever live in. It was.. an experience. Last semester I roomed with someone that was pretty decent. We could talk about anything and we listend to basically the same type of music. She was terribly messy which made me so angry and I hated her for that. Then I got a new roomate. She was terrible! It made me relize how good I had it! She was obsessed with TV, watched Judge Mathis and Judge Judy, along with The Price is Right like they were the best things thats ever hit the earth. I swear, that TV was never off. She would wake up at 7:30am each morning and turn on the backyardagins, or some other silly playhouse jr. show. We had less than 10 converstions the whole semester. I am so glad I am moving out today. Also really sad, I made some of the best friends I've ever had this year. I moved to a whole different state, went to a new school and knew nobody. From day one when i met Emma, Jason, Jeremy, and Tim.. they were my best friends. And still are. I have made so many good memories this year. Ive had so much fun and made a whole new group of friends. It has been great. I hope next year I can meet more people and have tons more fun. I cant wait to get my apartment so I can cook daily. Im going to be so healthy and try out hundreds of new recipes. I get to by a bike instead of a car, and redecorate a room that is completly mine. I wont have to share a room with anyone!! NICE. Ill have my own bathroom. New classes. And before the year even starts im going to have the funnest summer. Lifegaurding and teaching a mile swim class at a boyscoutt camp for 2 months in the middle of nowhere TN. Then get to go home and see my mom and little brother.
Im loving life.